Sunday, October 15, 2006


THE WHOLE TOOTH

Thursday was a total write off. I could not even get out of bed because the pain was constant and burning not only in my jaw, but also in my entire mouth. The only thing that made me roll out of bed and attempt to dust myself off was the phone call my assistant editor made around 11am. He did not like the sound of me so I called the dentist.

It turns out my masterful plan to wait until my medical insurance was set backfired and the right wisdom tooth grew in with infection. Tooth pain is not fun. Who would think that teeth could throw you down for a loop? Apparently tooth pain is common enough that once you explain your symptoms to someone their reaction is always the sympathetic response of “Iwch- that’s not right, girl.”

My whole life has shut down. Production is at a stand still. Emails just pile up and the phone is off the hook.

I got a call from my brother- (never good when the brother calls) on Friday alerting me that Ollie passed away that morning, all shocking and very sudden. Added to the infection, anti-bios and pain killers the past 2 days have been a serious blur of sleeping and quite lulling around the apartment.

I only made one attempt to go outside today for a photo op that closed down or never happened. Maybe the drugs are making me confused and I have my days messed up again. All I know is when the foul weather passed I took off to the job and no one was there- possibly rained out.

Story of the month- it rained, it rained, it rained on me.

RENTALS

The consumption of coffee and menthol cigarettes piles up in the white plastic trash bag by my front door as they come in and leave. Its visiting hours in the apartment and they all feel sorry for the predicament that fate has tossed me this time. I sit with my jaw out clutching smoke, caffeine, controller in hands with static running above my head as my guest’s burn off the current stories of the week. I dip in and out always coming back to the jumbled mess of ideas in my head struggling to come out in a clear stream of communication.

Trying to focus on what is new and exciting when there is so much old, frustration in your way is difficult, and some find it hard to deal when I am in this numbed state. I go from one large dump of information to periods of long dull silence as I try to sort thru the piles of ideas in my head.

The call for the wake up came when I looked around my office and made note the best way to clean up and motivate the mind was to first rearrange and change the workstation into something new. New beauty is needed all around me if I expect to shove off into a new direction.

I have dreams of walking to the studio each day, coffee in my hands, spring in my step, off to work, off to somewhere else where its jus WORK and not PLAY. Something with lots of light and not cornered off somewhere- away from neighbours shuffling and banging (off to new neighbours and more shuffling).

A house would be more appropriate, yet as I challenge one disaster to another every 3 months home ownership seems more like a dazzling dream of some idiotic kid who refuses to leave home, grow up or buckle down.


 

@ Sunday, October 15, 2006

ALL ABOUT ANNK!

I am a painter, I eat, sleep, talk. I slack, I do housework. I write stories, I watch TV, use the computer.
I hail from Milton, my friends are from Milton. We live, we drink coffee, we sleep in little beds.

We are just like you only maybe not as close.

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MY LOVELIST

I love...
apple juice, cookies, warm summer mornings, books, cotton fibers, pastel coffee mugs, holidays, flowers, French,  rainy days, fresh laundry smell.

I also love playing Earthbound!

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MY  HATELIST

People who smell like pea soup.


HOW TO GET AN ANNK

- I like flowers. Girls like flowers.

- I like comic books- ones with crazy stories in them. That is a sure win.

- I need spray paint... to umm... decorate. Girls are totally into that decorating crap.

- I have my eyes on Leonard Cohen's new book of poems.

- I like video games so make sure you buy lots of tokens for the arcade at the theater.

Recently bought CD:
The Breeders Last Splash- Third time buying this album and this time is for keeps!


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